Said best by Robert frost:
"Always fall in with what you're asked to accept. Take what is given, and make it over your way. My aim in life has always been to hold my own with whatever's going. Not against: with. "
A part of me, while reflecting on the last few years, is shocked this blog post hasn't happened sooner. In and out of relationships since the fourth grade, I started young and my heart became immune a long time ago. With all the "nitty-gritty" aside, I began to think about what happens when you have to put your feelings on hold. I've always condoned falling in love and pursuing it at all costs, no hesitations, but recently, possibly a more mature frame of mind has begun to overshadow my previous beliefs.
As little kids, we were read fairytales of princess'' and princes, love and happily ever after. There were no complications, just pure unceasing love; A sense that whatever was happening, this person was who they were meant to be with, no and's, if's, or but's about it. However, as we grow older most of us realize that this fairytale world is just that, a fairytale. Though we all still hold in our hearts the desire to find true love, the truth about our true love fairytale is that people aren't perfect, they will disappoint us and break our hearts. After all, I highly doubt that Cinderella had to pay her morgage and credit card bills, and Snow White was the "fairest of them all" so what was she to worry about? Maybe a bird who chirped off pitch.
Though I am aware as to how much of a 360 this new view is from what I ahve previously written, it is a breath of fresh air to approach things with no feelings attached, just truth. I generally say that if you find love, someone who you feel deeply for, hold onto them with everything your soul can muster. However, sometimes the real strength is in knowing when to let go.
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I tried to finish this post, but for some reason I can't find the words I'm trying to get across. That seems to be happening a lot lately, being without words, unable to express how I truly feel. So many times I've tried to speak, but nothing came out. The last to nights have been spent sleeplessly, tossing restlessly among the sheets trying to block out my brain for just an hour.
Nothing makes sense right now....and I will admit, I am scared.
Rebecca
"Courage is not simply one of the virtues, but the form of every virtue at the testing point. " -C.S. Lewis
hey becky! (not sure if that's what you go by now, but that's what my brother has always called you...) just wanted to say that i've enjoyed reading your blog! i don't get around to blogging as much as i would like, but it is a therapeutic activity for me. keep writing, and i hope you are enjoying your time overseas.
ReplyDelete~lauren
Aw. Don't be scared, Becky. Theres nothing in life that can beat you down as long as you, like your last quote says, have courage. Keep your head held high and know that you can conquer the world.
ReplyDeleteYou know that I have had no experiences with love.
That must be why my happily-ever-after, prince-charming-to-the-rescue frame of mind is still entirely in tact.
Maybe thats why I'm going to say this, or maybe I really do believe it and I never will stop believing it. Who knows. But, I just have to tell you that your prince charming IS out there. And you WILL find him. Maybe you already have. The things you've been telling recently me sure make it seem like that! =)
And, if you have, then I whole heartedly agree with you: hang on tight and don't you dare let go!
"After all, I highly doubt that Cinderella had to pay her morgage and credit card bills, and Snow White was the 'fairest of them all' so what was she to worry about? Maybe a bird who chirped off pitch." I laughed out loud at that one! It's so true!
ReplyDeleteKim pretty much said it all, but I think I'll add my two cents as well, if you please. :)
I know that you have much more experience than I do in the whole "love" department, but maybe the reason why boys haven't lived up to being "prince charming" is because you haven't met YOUR prince charming! Someday, you'll find him. As Snow White once sang (on pitch, I'm sure), someday your prince will come! Until then, pray about it! And I'm always a phone call (or computer call I guess? lol) away!